Tuesday, December 25, 2007


I got Green when I tried this!

Of all the brain types, yours has the most balance.You are able to see all sides to most problems and are a good problem solver.You need time to work out your thoughts, but you don't get stuck in bad thinking patterns.You tend to spend a lot of time thinking about the future, philosophy, and relationships (both personal and intellectual).

Thursday, November 29, 2007

Someone sent me a link to the site “101 ways to relax”….:)

It had good techniques including message therapies, morning rituals and meditations, holistic healing using crystals, relaxing candles, relaxing music and much more.

What attracted me most was the topic “Relaxation by Self-Hypnosis.”

This is what I absorbed from there:

Hypnosis as we all know is purely a psychological condition of altered state of mind in which some people may be induced to show various differences in behavior and thinking, like heightened suggestibility and receptivity to direction.

Self-hypnosis is a type of hypnosis in which you add visualization.

Try this: Simply start with your toes and work all the way up to your head saying "My (toes) are heavy and relaxed" 3 times... with each part of your body... and while you are saying the words, focus on relaxing that muscle/body part... feel it happening. Once you master this, also start picturing yourself in a beautiful place. Like maybe on a beautiful island, pleasant wind blowing through your hair, sun warming your skin... the smell of the salty, sea air wafting by. Or any other peaceful, serene place of your choice. Hear the waves crashing on the shore, the gulls in the air. You are walking across the sand, feeling it warming your feet. Think of nothing else at all….

There you are... hypnotized... easy, was it?

Count to five, come back to the here and now... and the feeling of accomplishment is sometimes overwhelming.

And the purpose of hypnosis?

Unlimited! It is effective if you are seeking relief to the struggles of weight loss, smoking cessation, stress management, pain management, sleep, or phobias. And the list goes on.

It requires no drugs, no doctor's offices, no prying psycho babble. No money into medicines, parlors, therapies, creams or anything. It is just free!!

All it needs is your continued practice in your own home, at your own pace, using your own skills and imagination.
Life is strange. None of us knows what life is…is it science, art or something else?

Often I think about it. I have strange thoughts in mind. Where do we come from? Where do we go to? It is strange because we don't have answers to every question. Even science fails to answer these. We think, search, and still do not have the answers to everything.

However, just imagine what would happen if we knew it all. If we knew what is life? What if we were born with a paper in hand, with details of what we were before this life, what we will do in life, we would die and how would be our life after death. Exciting yet scares me! If we knew all this then Life would become useless. We would stop thinking, believing in anything as there would be nothing to unfold. Life would be mundane, unexciting…

So, it is this curiosity of what is going to happen next minute, which lets us enjoy, love, trust, and believe in others and ourselves. It encourages us to discover, to move on, to struggle, and to fight……TO LIVE!

Reminds me of the song:

"Isn't Life Strange"
Isn't life strange
A turn of the page
Can read like before, can we ask for more?
Each day passes by..........

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

@ Conversation

“Does it or does it not?” she asked me. I said “Not really, but maybe.” She giggled and said…………..

Ok…let’s start from the starting!

We were having this exchange, P (my best friend) and me.

The debate started with me putting up a naive thought to her. “Can I at this point of time get into what I really want to do in my life? Can I leave my job and join social work, or start my own social organization? Can I pen a book and get it published? Can I take dance classes or learn an instrument or study something? Can I travel around the world” She said that I can definitely do all of this as my family is capable enough to back me. That is anyways true. But, I always wanted to do all of this on my own, without any support…right! Which means, I need to have lot of green stuff with me, quit my job, and then get into all this. Which also could mean that after sometime I may not have all that money in my hand, it maybe there it may not be! Which means there maybe times, when I find myself financially unsettled.

She asked me, “How much does money matter to you? Does it or does it not?” I said “Not really, but maybe.” She smiled and said “This is the Catch-22 of life, you need to take the risk.” We closed the topic.

Now, I need to think if I want to take that risk, what is important to me – satisfaction or money!!

Today was Tomorrow Yesterday......

You thought you’ll do it tomorrow
You felt tomorrow will be sometime later,
You imagined tomorrow to be far away,
You wanted to rest before tomorrow comes,
You liked saying “Will see it tomorrow,”
You tried, but left it for tomorrow,
You craved, but you had to wait for tomorrow,


Tomorrow never comes…..

It’s only today that you saw yesterday.

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

My interpretation of life

Dictionary meaning: Life is a condition that distinguishes organisms from inorganic objects, i.e. non-life, and dead organisms, being manifested by growth through metabolism, reproduction, and the power of adaptation to environment through changes originating internally.

But, is that all about life?

So, here is my meaning: Life is colors, craze, adventure, smiles, delight, love, passion, surprises, affection and synonyms. Yes, I know for some of us life is not as out-and-out as all the words I have put here. But, at least I think of it this way. I guess it makes me feel all happy.

Rest all for me is non-life.

But, since this blog is not all about me, let’s talk about the times when life puts a person to a checkmate situation? PAUSE. A point where we are left thinking……..what is happening and WHY? When things seem going out of control. When world seems gloomy and hopeless. What do we do then?

Well, different people different strokes. I could finger three broad blankets around me:

1: Those of us who give in considering this time as the worst thing that could happen to us. We start feeling helpless and cry and crib and go to nowhere. We loose more and more. Surprisingly, most of us fall into this space.

2: Those of us who start struggling hard to find out a solution, find the answers to our worries. Some we get easily, some we struggle to find out and some we don’t get and would never…...so we forget. But, we still struggle and leave everything else for this. So, maybe we find out the answer one day, but still we loose everything else. Surprisingly again, a lot of us come in this list too.

3: And a handful of us say “This bad phase is a part of life, and we’ll not give up our peace for this. We’ll do what we planned to do and this will go side-by-side. ” Then we win. Though this seems simple when written, yet, to do this needs lot of courage. To be not disturbed and not fall into the trap of worries needs guts.

A simple exercise for others, you, and me:

1. Step back in time and think of all times you have felt that everything around is falling.
2. Answer yourself which category you fall into
3. Try to get into the third category if you are not there, because we all must win!

Whatever and however it is, you must face it, live it and enjoy it. And after all it is not that bad. Remember, after every dark night comes a warm, fresh morning.

So, live and get going! Cheers to life!

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

4 U

When my love,
the worlds seems gray,
and life moves away from you,
Look at me, and call me
Say "I need you,"
And I shall be there, against all odds,
Ask me, how much I love you
I shall answer with no words,
Only my eyes,
my smile!
You hold me into your arms,
And I shall quiver with your touch
You come into love, into my heart
And we shall be together always.

Monday, August 20, 2007

*Saturday afternoon, 1PM, me trying to sleep*

“Kit Kit Kit Kit”

That voice…no rather that noise was getting on my nerves………..

“Kit Kit Kit Kit Kit”

Into my brain.............

“Kit Kit Kit Kit Kit Kit”

“Kit Kit Kit Kit Kit Kit”

Into my whole system...........

I could comprehend that it was coming from somewhere near my house. I got up and decided to go out and yell and curse the creator of this ear-piercing, sound. While walking towards the door, I framed what all I can allegate on this person. Something like, “Do you have no sense? People are trying to sleep here, get lost!”

So…..I went out.

…...And I saw him. Seeing him my anger vanished. It was tough, difficult to get annoyed at him.

I could see his bones. He must not have bathed for past 2 days, I am sure. It was hot and sunny and he was busy mending the road. His clothes were torn off and he had bruises all over his body. He looked hungry and sleepy, but he concentrated hard on his work. Dust was settling all over his head and face, but it did not matter much to him.

He did not look at me.

He was small, lean, black, dirty, about 8 years old.

I looked at him for 5 minutes.

* Me back to home and into the bed*

Friday, August 17, 2007

What is it?? [*Incomplete*]

It is.....

away and close,
near and far,
small and large,
sweet and sour,
bad and good,
hate and love,
truth and lies,
soft and loud,
ugly and pretty,

It is there and here,
And everywhere.....

It is..........

Tuesday, July 31, 2007

Some thoughts by a very close friend.......

Today I needed my friend the most,
A shoulder to cry on, A hand to hold on,
A heart to understand me, A finger to guide me
A child to cheer me, An angel to hear me,
But Alas! Life has other ways,
I walked towards her,
Got a sensible response,
34 days, so what?
Today it is a different day,
Yes - A very different day,
Missed my friend like never before,
Every moment and every beat,
Today I needed my friend the most.

Thursday, June 28, 2007


Formula One, abbreviated to F1, and also known as Grand Prix racing, is the highest class of auto racing defined by the Fédération Internationale de l'Automobile (FIA), motor sport's world governing body.

Its headquarters are in Place de la Concorde, Paris. Its current president is Max Mosley.
The "formula" in the name is a set of rules, which all participants and cars must meet.
The sport's title, Formula One, indicates that it is intended to be the most advanced and most competitive of the many racing formulae.

The cars race at high speeds, often greater than 320 km/h (200 mph) and are capable of pulling up to 6 g in some corners. The performance of the cars is highly dependent on electronics, aerodynamics, suspension, and tyres.
The first Formula One World Championship was won by Italian Giuseppe Farina in his Alfa Romeo in 1950, barely defeating his Argentine teammate Juan Manuel Fangio.
Michael Schumacher and Ferrari won an unprecedented five consecutive drivers’ championships and six consecutive constructors’ championships between 1999 and 2004. Schumacher set many new records, including those for Grand Prix wins (91), wins in a season (13 of 18), and most drivers' championships (7).

Michael Schumacher holds the record for having won the most Drivers' Championships (seven) and Ferrari holds the record for having won the most Constructors' Championships (fourteen).

Jochen Rindt became the only posthumous World Champion after a fatal accident at the 1970 Italian Grand Prix.
A typical race circuit usually features a stretch of straight road on which the starting grid is situated. The pit lane, where the drivers stop for fuel and tyres during the race, and where the teams work on the cars before the race, is normally located next to the starting grid.
Most of the circuits currently in use are specially constructed for competition.
2007 Formula One season

The 2007 Formula One season is the 58th FIA Formula One World Championship season. It began on 18 March and is set to end on 21 October after seventeen Grands Prix.
The 2007 season is significant in that it will herald the end of the existing Concorde Agreement between the existing Formula One constructors and Bernie Ecclestone.

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

If I didn't love you, I woudn't miss you....but I did, I do and I will

She is the most charming and hottest chick I have seen on earth. She is an angel, always high-spirited and lively. She loves being naughty and is honestly curious. She is amazingly confident, fearless and lovable. This is my 7-years old niece Vanshika.

Sober, thoughtful, and soft – He seeks perfection in whatever he does. He is very anxious, observant and far-sighted. His calm and composed nature is what I admire most. He moves slowly and talks cautiously.
That is Navyansh….my 2-year-old nephew.
Missing you both a lot. Adore you both like anything!

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

"However rare true love may be, it is less so than true friendship."

There is a very slender delineation between love and friendship. I believe that if you love someone, you may not be that person’s best friend. However, if you are someone’s best friend then you definitely love him or her. This thought makes me value friendship more than love. The love, which comes out of friendship, is always a priced possession. It is free of any commitment and definitely ground for a lifetime relationship.

Happy Birthday "Synergy" - 20th June

I wish Synergy another year of laughter, joy and fun, surprises and love.
From deep within my heart "You mean to me, More than you can know."

Friday, June 15, 2007

It happened to me.....

I unshut a pandora box,
And lo! There whacked out a fox,

I tapped it with my magic stick,
And it danced Dick! Dick! Dick!
As it spinned it became a frog,
And out it went for a jog,

It then squatted on a magic cart,
Which then flipped to a dart,
The dart soared into the sky,
The frog then learned to fly,

When it rolled near the sun,
It shot that with a hand gun,
My eyes opened with that sound,
It was a comic dream, I found!

Thursday, June 14, 2007

I had the longing to scribble this down long since it happened. But, somehow could not. Last few days, have been feeling at fault for not penning this down.

A month back, I was returning home by my office bus. It was 7PM. I got down at the bus stop near my house. I was trapped in the best of Bangalore traffic - colossal buses, humongous trucks, flood of cars and bikes and all other the vehicles of the world. As I hasted on the road, I was in my own head trip about what all I need to do when I land home.
Then….I saw him….a drooping old man, with his round shoulders almost hanging down. He must have been somewhere in his 80s. He was aiming to do something which looked unachievable for him….cross the road at that choking hour.

At first, I think I was neutral. For once I thought “Someone would come and help him in sometime, I have to rush home.” However, I could not remain stoic for long. Call it upbringing, education, individual perspective or something else…. “What if no one came to his help?” Some voice from inside said “Ok….I have to go home, but, this will take only 5 minutes.”

So, I went to him and supported him as he crossed the road. It took precisely 3 minutes. He smiled once we were on the other side. And then we both went our own ways.

He could not see properly and he spoke some incoherent feeble words, but I could sense his blessings.

I don’t think I did anything I could be proud off….and this is not an achievement I want to share with the world.
I narrate this because, somehow that old man’s face comes to my mind now and then. And with that come many questions. Why was he there? Why could no one help him? Where were his near and dear ones? Why had they left him alone?


Will each of us be at his place some or the other day?

Write! Write! Write!

What to write? I don't know
When to write? No One knows
Why to write? This I know
Tell me someone...what to do???

Tuesday, June 5, 2007

A selfish thought.....Save her for myself!!

"We do not inherit the earth from our ancestors, we borrow it from our children."

Today is World Environment day.
Some abstract thoughts in mind put down together say:
Will never the mankind accord the mother?
for she is who is dying now,
its time to clasp her near us,
unshackle her, give her life,
let her abound and wheeze,
for in her every gasp rests our subsistence!

Monday, June 4, 2007


A friend, V, has been perpetually seeking an answer to his question he had put to me last week. The question when he puts it up seems plain and elementary. But, the second I think of a back talk, I see the daylight. I feel unqualified to turn up with a justifiable plea. I start to have vibes like he is investigating me, like a criminal. That’s why, I have been side stepping from this session for long. I have been making peculiar, tales - “This is not the right time, not the right place, I have work, you have work” I also prayed that he forgets about the question, but, he does not.

Ok….the question as he puts it is “Why are you doing what you are doing? Why are you doing this job?” Simple!! There are rooted meanings to it though. He feels, I am junking some hidden skill (of which I am completely ignorant and he has been able to discern) in my job. But, I feel what he takes as a talent is just a hobby for me….but yes I am possessive about it. Then, is there a demarcation between these two? I don't know...maybe yes...maybe no!! Also, what’s the big deal about it? Everyone has a hobby….right?

But, my dilemma is that I think it’s essential to answer him.

Am I doing what I want to do? No.
Do I know what I want to do? Maybe.
Do I know how to do what I want to do? NO.

Am I going to use this craft ever? If no, why not? If yes, how and where? Let's be optimistic and discount the “no” part for now and talk about “yes”. So, if I say yes then again, the where part can still be answered, but, how seems challenging, though not unobtainable.

I must decode an answer and then maybe I can full-dress this post.

*an unstated doubt that prevents you from accepting something wholeheartedly.

Friday, May 25, 2007

A Little White Lie

My grandmother told me once,
He is all powerful, supreme and omnipotent,
So oneday, in my virtousness,
I appealed to Him -
May no sapient ever grow,
For the cosmos needs,
A juvenile's purity, a child's morality,
simpleness and naviety,
I got assured,
A supreme power would hear me,
And this planet will overflow -
With affection, calmness, tranquility and faith,
I waited - endlessly and patiently,
To this very day,
I wonder again and again,
Why grandmother lied to me?

Tuesday, May 22, 2007


Trees never grow....its the branches that spread,
Birds never fly....its the wings that flap,
Night never comes....its the Earth that moves,
Life never ends....its WE who stop.

Monday, May 14, 2007

An Evening With...

It’s about yesterday. It was an easeful Sunday evening. I was cherishing my loneliness at home and filling it with Television and orange juice. I didn’t have an idea of what was coming.

Things changed in split seconds. That fated moment, it appeared from no where, closemouthed, sluggish, dreamy, and lethargically gazing at me. It gave me a mysterious and spookish look. My heart was beating faster with its each successive move. Out I jumped of my "bean bag" and yelled “shucks!” I could not accept that it was there. But, honestly…it was there.

So I screamed…..and it pretended not to hear me but inside I know it could hear me but wanted to put up a could-shoulder. Anyways, now, I had to do something. “Lage Raho Munnabhai” being fresh in my memory, I thought of taking the road of non-violence. I told it “Please Please…go away!” But, I think it got maddened. It turned its passionate eyes towards me and that was it. The chill ran up my spine. I freezed to death! I was cemented to the floor and I had no clue what to do. I was glued there for like 10 minutes…neither did it move nor me. Standing there, my whole life came in front of me - my school, wonderful college days, my friends, my office, things I always wanted to do and many more. I thought, I thought more and then I concluded. I cannot give away to it. I also called up my friend Aman, who consoled me that nothing wrong will happen. So, all motivated, I hushed along the wall side, taking care not to agitate it. I picked up some available weapons that would defend me against it. I tried all that on it. Nothing worked. The encounter continued for four hours. Wherever it went, I went right behind. It was keeping an eye on all my actions and I was following each of its moves. I opened the exit door to it, it did not go out. I offered to get into a mutual accord….it sleeps dormant behind the sofa and I get zipped to my bed. But, it did not give its approval. It wanted to gallop, jog and sprint all around the house, scrutinize all the rooms and scan the kitchen. It maybe wanted to play with me.

After four hours, both of us were tired.

By this time, I think God decided to help me. And as they say, “After night comes morning”, so in matter of seconds, it maneuvered fervently and with a jerk skipped speedily out of the window. I could not believe it had gone. I closed the window tightly. It was time to rejoice!

This had been the most difficult evening of my life. A nightmarish evening with a sleazy, lousy and dungy LIZARD!!!

Friday, May 4, 2007

Never Ending Needs

Do you feel the need to add more to this one? I am, leaving it incomplete, go ahead!

I need food, He needs drink,
Girl needs gold, Boy needs bike,
Child needs love, Old needs care,
Mother needs trust, Daughter needs space,
Son needs money, Father needs results,
Boss needs resources, Employee needs time,
Uncle needs tea, Aunt needs clothes,
Neta needs votes, Junta needs "a break",
Actor needs film, Manager needs project...
When everybody needs something....Who will give??

Further Added by my friend Aman:
Love needs commitment, commitment needs breathing space
poor needs to fulfil his necessities, rich needs luxuries
unemployed needs a job, a working man needs a vacation
lazy needs to sleep, ambitious needs to conquer the world
And I, need contentment... of my heart, and my mind!!!


I am currently reading a book called Midway Station by Lara Shankar. The book is about little kids who spend an essential part of their life, their childhood, on the roads, in railway stations and government shelters, correctly termed as "orphanages", which are nothing less than jails.

Who are these children? Some who have been left to the world to take care of them, others who have willingly chosen to live this kind of life, because it is still better than what it is back home.
The author of the book meets such eleven children and documents their narration. There are stories of children who have run away from home to escape their step parents, who want to earn money for their needy family, who were brutally tortured, forced to work, and much more.

The thought that comes out after reading the book is that, we, who get all the comforts and pleasures in life, take things for granted and shut our eyes to the world of poverty, hunger and need.

“Can we do something for them”, is the next thought. I would not want to answer it here and expect the reader of this post to put up some comment on this.

But, I would definitely like to thank my very close friend Priyanka who sent me this book as my Birthday gift!!

Open Your Eyes

Wrote in Class 7th
Context: Inspired by a similar hindi story.
A little white dove,
came out of its case,
fluttered its wings,
till they were streched,
It opened its eyes to the beautiful world,
And saw a yellow ball with dazzling light.
Ah! "I saw it first, that makes it mine",
Then, he walked along and saw the roses,
the lakes, the sky, the grass, the trees,
He was pleased, he had them all.
"My little one", then said the mother,
these awsome creations are not for one,
but for ever soul that rests on earth.
What you owe is not the sun, flowers and sky,
Love, pity and kindness to all,
Is what really belongs to you.

Thursday, May 3, 2007

World – Where is it going?

Have you ever heard anyone saying, “The sun is mine, only I can enjoy the sunshine?” I am sure if you see someone speak that you will take that person for crazy.

I am in Bangalore for past 4 months and a similar thing happened here when a couple of months back, court announced its judgment on Kaveri water distribution. There is no need to talk about the whole case as the media had publicized it well across the country. What disturbed me most was the attitude of common people of both the states of Karnataka and Tamil Nadu. Instead of understanding each other’s needs, people were simply fighting amongst themselves.

Backed by political interest, some went ahead to create total chaos in both the states. The uncivilized behavior was reflected in agitated protests followed by violence and killings, traffic jams and road blocking for hours, stone throwing on cars and much more.

And all this for water from a natural resource!

I do accept the perspective that water is essential for life and people are actually suffering without sufficient water. But, there has to be right way to put up one's point. This fight which ensued between the people of these two states with water as a "said reason" was not really about it.

I feel in the coming days we will also fight about the moonlight, the sparkle from the stars, the trees shade, the rains, the clouds, and what not. These would be our reasons of abusing each other.

It is a pitty, that at this time, when our struggle should be against population, pollution, corruption, unemployment, illiteracy, poverty and the likes, we are simply wasting our time on fighting against each other based on cast, color, creed, religion.

This makes me think - Where is the world heading to???

A Faux Pas

Written in class 8th
Context: Although, this does not have a specific context. But, was provoked by a similar happening with a friend.

Everyday she would crave to God,
Immersed in the amniotic fluid,
all she yearned was the physical world,
She would covet for the lady in whose blood she bathed,
But, very soon,
He would slaughter her,
And wipe her entity,
He, of whom she was a module,
He, who was her progenitor,
Her creator would would extirpate her,
And she called him Father!!
He had a justification,
He did not desire her,
She did not have his "Y" chromosome,
And that was her gaffe.

Who was he?

Context: Written during the days of Kargil war.

Rainbow and dewdrops,
Candles and lights,
Roses and dandelions,
Were synonyms of life -
Pleasing and joyful,
Fortunate for me,
But, what about "him"?
He, who had never seen,
Rainbows and dewdrops,
Candles and lights,
Roses and dandelions,
For he who was away from home,
I never thought of him,
But, one day I thought of him,
That was the day when he was "dead",
I never cried for him,
I never knew him,
But then,
Why did he die for me?
Oh! He was a "soldier"

The colors of life!!

Wrote in Class 6th.
Context: Don't remember. Might have faced some struggle in life for the first time.

When I was a small child,
And my imaginations were wild.
I thought of all the beautiful things,
The sweetness with which a nightingale sings.
My world was full of love,
From Earth to the sky above.
All those tails from Arabian nights,
Seemed so much full of delight.
I thought the world is made of toffee,
And all rivers are full of coffee.
The trees, I felt were chocolate bars,
Ice cream, I thought makes the cars.
The cloud was a water balloon,
A shining coin that was the moon.
For hours I gazed at the stars,
My mom said, God has planted flowers.
A light bulb, that was the sun,
Sorrows and worries, I had none.
All women queens and men were kings,
Girls were fairies, and lads were prince.
I enjoyed the rainbow very much,
From where it came, I could never judge.
When rains came, water clogged the roads,
But I was happy, floating my boats.
That was my little world of dreams,
A lovely fantasy! As it now seems.